Year In Review

Well,it's nearly the end of the year yet again.Another year is gonna end and it's also a time to reflect back on all the things which bore any significance to my life.Let's look at back at the 5 most significant event that has happened for this year.Let's get the ball rollin' then.Drums please!DUM!DUM!DAM!DUN!DAM!DUN!DUN!DAM!(imagine the sounds from the song "We Will Rock You")

5.I went to my first ever prom.Yup.You read that right.First ever!I know it sounds kinda lame and very loser-ish (Does that word even exist?).I didn't look at all stylish that night but what matters was that I enjoyed it.My friends enjoyed it.Or did they?The only thing which I wanted to complain was that I went to the prom without a date.Isn't that what proms are supposed to be about?I went to a prom without a date?How sucky can that be?My date was Fareez.And that sums it all up.My date was a guy!hahaha...it's funny thought when you think about it.Two guys going to a prom for the first time.Correction.One guy.Not two.Well,maybe you guys must be thinking:This loser is making a deal of a crappy prom night.To me,I think this was a very significant event this year.Plus,it's my final year.What better way to end it by going to a prom without a date.Damn that last sentence sounds so embarrassing.

4.The next thing that was very significant this year was that I finally got a car to commute to class.All these years,I'd either be walking to class or hitching a ride with my friends to class or anywhere.I'm not gonna brag that I bought a Suzuki Swift but what the hell,it's better than not having a car.It's a cool car.I liked it.I liked the color and I bought it.No second thoughts about it.I waited for a long time to have a car and finally I got one.Sniff.Sniff.Yet again,you readers must be thinking:What issit with this guy when it comes to getting a car?It's just a damn car.Everybody has one.That's not significant at all.AT ALL!Think what you may but it's a very important thing this year.I'm proud to have my Deadmobile.Hey,it sounds catchy doesn't it?

3.I graduated this year.Finally.After all the hardships,I've finally graduated from MMU.Although I didn't manage to get a first class degree but,I still made it through.I got a degree,didn't I?I regret I did not study hard enough to excel in my studies.It's unexplainable actually.I work hard and yet I fail in some subjects.I start early and yet I'm behind the pecking order.One word to describe all that:IDIOT!I've been living in denial all this while.I'm not smart!I'm not clever!I'm S.T.U.P.I.D!Sheesh.....Anyways,it's all done and dusted.I've graduated already.No use crying over things that have already passed.The best part about this whole graduation thing was that my convocation was held on my birthday!How cool is that!I get to have a double celebration.My birthday+my convocation.Cool eh?Double celebration.Still,I'm not too proud on having made it through with a 3rd class degree.I managed to graduate but I'm not to proud of it though.And I blame it on myself for living a miserable life before this.

2.I managed to get a job.I don't know how I got it but I'm thankful to God for giving me that chance.I gladly took it with open arms.I don't remember even applying for that job and yet Maybank called up to tell me that they wanna call me up for an interview.When I think about it,I'm really dumbfounded about the whole thing.I thought I answered crap that day and yet,I got it.Amazing!That really boosted my confidence and is something which will go down in the history of my life as something of a miracle.I mean,who'd wanna hire a loser like me to be part of their organisation?Only a fool would take a chance on me.Then again,isn't everything in this world full of risks and about chances?

1.This will not only go down as the most significant event in the whole of my life.It's the most holy shit thing of the year.Who would have thought that I'd have a girlfriend who I'm gonna get engaged to soon?I did not see this thing coming.Nobody did.It's just fate.God really has amazing plans.I'm glad he put me in this little plan of His.Think about it.For the most part of my time here in MMU,I've been chasing after the wrong girl and finally after I've graduated,I bagged the right one.She was there in front of me and I didn't notice it.Actually,I didn't notice her because she's always sitting at the back and I'm always sitting in front of the class.Nevertheless,the way things went out between us has been nothing short of.....amazing and strange.Strange in the sense that I was going after another person and somehow I coupled up with Amy.From then on,it's history as people usually say it.When I said amazing,I meant all the things that she's taught me and of the things that I've been missing all this while.I'm lucky and thankful for what has happened.Things like this don't happen more than once.

Well,there's the list of the most significant things that has happened for me this year.It sounds childish but hey,I've always had that inner child in me,controlling me and making me think like an immature bitch.Anyways,here's to looking at the future.I wonder what holds in store for me in 2009.Issit gonna be as good as this year?Who knows?I'm just excited of what's coming and definitely looking forward to future events.

So,are you ready for the new year?What have you been up to this past year?Ask yourself that and improve yourself.And that goes to you,Azrai.You're the one who's supposed to be improving yourself.

Currently listening to "Will2k" by Will Smith.

Rainy day

Hello dear readers.I'm stuck here in McDonald's on a rainy day.Since I don't have an internet connection,I have to bring my laptop here to this place and hang around here while I waste my life away and writing this entry here.It's pretty fucked up actually,with me being stuck inside the restaurant.I can't go out because it's raining pretty heavy out there.Thank God I didn't send my car to get washed or else it'd be a waste of money.

I'm getting engaged!

Geez.I feel like it's been like forever that I've written something on my blog.Well,as you know,I don't have much of a life these days and I'm just too darn busy with work (Yeah right!).Actually I'm just too lazy to find a spot with free Wi-fi.What can I say,I'm too poor to even have an internet connection at home.

So,what have I got to say about myself.First things first.I wanna say that I'm getting engaged.Yep.E.N.G.A.G.E.D.I'm not joking.It's the real deal.I AM getting engaged.Doesn't sound like I'm telling the truth eh?I know I'm a liar and I swindle people but I'm not shitting you readers on this.Who am I getting engaged with?Definitely not with Megan Fox I ain't.Nor am I getting engaged with Shia Lebeef.No.I'm getting engaged with my lovely,Amelia.

I know it sounds kinda rush or anything but I guess,things just became that way.When you think about it,it sounds....strange and in a way,it got me thinking,how'd it get this way?We were in the same class for like...4 years...then somehow with God's good grace,we end up hooking up with each other and now we're gonna get engaged.Seriously,I never saw this part of this ever happening in my life.Yet,I'm thankful to have her.I'm also to lucky to have her.She's been wonderful to me.Even when I screwed up real bad,she forgave me.When I said real bad,I'm talking about shit that can fuck up a relationship.And yeah,she gave me a good whooping after that.haha.

Anyways,that's all i gotta say about that.I'm just getting engaged.Nothing special.Just an engagement,people.

Currently listening to "Down with the Sickness" by Disturbed.

Finally....Deadpool is back

Finally,I'm back to update my blog.It's been like 3 weeks since I was last online.Or issit 2?I can't recall.Time flies really fast.

I think I'm gonna enjoy my work.It's not that bad.It sounds bad but actually it's not as bad as it sounds.Sure,I get angry callers some times but after they hear my smooth and silky voice (Cue:the puking) they start to tone down on the shouting and swearing.Some people can't take it you know.I start at 8.45am and finish at 5.45pm.After that,it's over.No need to think about it.It's not like you're gonna see those people who swore and scold you.Plus I get to go the gym after work.Ain't that cool?Now I look buff and tough like Shia LeBeef.

It's been an eventful month.I'm not sure whether I should be talking about it but maybe I will tell about it in the near future.

Currently listening to "Barenaked" by Jennifer Love Hewitt.

Hari Raya

Finally,the fasting month is over.Ramadan is over and we are now celebrating Aidilfitri.Of course,this is a moment to to celebrate about.What have we achieved during the fasting month?Some people have lost weight while some haven't.Some people have become a better muslim and some....I dunno....that's for you readers to think about.

I think Ramadan this year is the best ever.Why?Simple.I got to spend my Ramadan with my loved one and I started work during this month.It's been a special 30 days for me.When I look backed at the past 30 days,I'm thinking that I've never felt happier than those 30 days.I really had fun with Amy.I find myself helplessly in love with her.Hehehe...Ok.Now I'm sounding like a fucking pussy here.C'mon 'Pool.You're not supposed to be talking like a damn pussy who's always bitching about stuff.Be a man.Do the right thing.Whatever that would be.

And now comes Aidilfitri.A day where the radio will play the same Raya song over and over again until we all get bored listening to those songs.Seriously,I'm getting tired of listening to the raya songs on the radio.I just can't understand why the radio djs have to play some songs over and over again until we all can't take that song anymore.It kinda reminded me when the song "My Boo" was at the top of the billboard charts.Radio stations everywhere were playing that song over and over almost every hour.Now they're doing it again.If you thought you were getting irritated listening to James Blunt's song "You're Beautiful" then you're going to find Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours" equally irritating.

So,what else would I wanna crap about.Hmmm...I'd love to talk about one or two things but I thinkI'd rather leave it for another day to write about it.I wanna enjoy this two day break from work.Gosh I really wish Friday was a holiday.

Oh and by the way,Slipknot has come up with a new album.Please go to the nearest Speedy video or Artist Gallery and buy the CD.It's not that expensive.In fact,I'm heading there myself to buy the new Slipknot CD.Buy original.Don't download it.

Currently listening to "Psyhosocial" by Slipknot.

Ain't happy.AT ALL!

You know,when you're working,you're supposed to be happy to receive your salary.People would be planning a lotta things once they got their salary.They'd be like planning about where to spend all that money.Not me.I am definitely not happy.

The reason:
1.I have to pay for my car.
2.I have to pay for my rent.
3.I have to save some money for a future event.*wink*wink*
4.I can't think of a better way to spend the money other than for my own stupid self.

Sheesh.Ain't I the most pathetic guy ever on this planet?I mean,I can't take Amy out on a nice dinner without ending up being pennyless at the end of the month.It's easy for me to ask her for some money but I ain't gonna do that.I'm not the kinda person who'd ask a girl for money.Besides,where's the honor in that?

Sometimes,I got myself thinking.With this kinda thing going on,would I be able to sustain a healthy financial status like this?Hell,imagine me with this kinda financial situation when I get married?What a horror flike that would be!It got me thinking.I have got to find a solution for this.Gotta get some extra money.I wonder where?I can only think about drug pushing or even my ass hole.But then again,who'd wanna buy from me?Even I wouldn't want to buy from myself.It's disgusting.I can't imagine myself bending over for some ugly ass guy.Urgh...Now THAT is disgusting.

Sigh.I miss watching wrestling.

Currently listening to "I Miss You" by Incubus.

Changes

Well,hello,there.It's been awhile since I last updated my blog.I did update a new entry like a few minutes ago but that one was like a week old already.I just didn't have any idea what to write these past few days.

I could have written more on my work but I just don't feel much like writing about it.It's boring job where I can get easy money.I just have to sit on the chair and listen to idiots who can't work the stupid website.It's a simple thing but still people get it wrong.Whoops.Better not say more or else I'd be the one making the same mistakes like those idiots.

What else can I say about the current events?Hmm...Since I got here,I've missed 3 episodes of WWE Raw.Damn.I wanna watch that show but I just can't find a place where I can watch it.I've totally missed out on a lotta things.Plus,I'm missing out on Gossip Girl.People are talking about it but I haven't watched it!!!!I need my laptop!

The only comfort from all of this is that I get to see my girlfriend everyday.There are occasions where I can't see her because of work but I'm glad I got the job here in Shah Alam.I can't say for sure that when a we're close we don't have arguments.We do have our occasional arguments.Sometimes,those arguments are really bad.There was this one time when she wanted a breather and that was like a bomb blowing up inside my heart.I admit I made a mistake and I'm paying for it.Thank God though things were back to normal (or so I think).All it took was just one idiotic move and things would definitely spiral out of hand.Trust me,hell hath no fury when a woman (or girl) gets angry.I learned that the hard way.So,the moral of the story is never go and keep secrets from your loved ones.If you wanna keep a secret,make sure that it stays a secret.Oh, and if you wanna message a former crush,make sure you don't overexaggerate it or else there's gonna be hell to pay.Imagine Brad Pitt messaging Jennifer Anniston and then Angelina found out.Woooo..there's definitely going to be a storm brewing.

Currently listening to "Sillylilly" by Bunkface.

Work

Finally,Deadpool is back to writing back on his blog.It feels like an eternity since I updated my blog.I've been kinda busy with a lotta stuff these days.Kinda tied down with work and with no internet at home,my life has been really boring.Plus,I didn't bring my laptop along with me.Sheesh.My gaming life is pratically over.

Work is boring.All I do is come to work.Listen to the seniors handle the customers,go for training and then go back home.I lead such a mundane life.It's miracle that a loser like me can have a girlfriend.Mebbe the first month is boring is because of the fasting month.You can't do a lotta things during this month.Eating something would definitely help in losing my sleepiness.Ah well,here's to my new life here at Shah Alam working as a Customer Service Executive or CSE for short.

Currently listening to "Wind it up" by Kat DeLuna.

Fall For You

I was watching MTV Amplified and then this song came out.So,I went and download this song.(Kids,please do NOT try this at home because it is piracy.Please go and buy their CD.Support the music industry by paying and making the singers/bands richer)

Fall For You
by Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's
that we're not fighting
It couldn't be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core



But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind



I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find



This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that
I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start



Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible



So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep



And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep



Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find



Tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find


It's a song by a band that goes by the name Secondhand Serenade.Secondhand Serenade?What kinda name is that?I wonder where they got that name anyways?From a box of Legos?Anyways,I kinda like the lyrics to that song.Especially the part where it says "Because a girl like you is impossible to find.You're impossible to find"

I know I'm heaping too much praise for Amy but when I listen to that song,my head would start to think about her.I start to think that I'm blessed to have met and fallen for her eventhough the circumstances that we got together was kinda funny.I'm thankful it turned out this way.And I'm not ever going to change my mind about Amy no matter how different we are.People say that we aren't right for each other but what do I care about what people think or say.Fuck what people say.It's my life and I choose to be with her no matter how many times we fight or argue about who's the man in the relationship or how much of an idiot I can be.Still,it's normal for couples to fight,right?Or issit just me to think that way?If it's just me,then I guess I feel like an noobie.

The more people doubt about this relationship,the more I wanna prove them wrong.I may be an idiot to think naively or being an idealist but I believe that Amy's the one for me and there's nothing in this damn world that can change my mind.Well,except of course for the Olsen twins.Again with the Olsen twins!!!!

Currently listening to "Fall For You" by Secondhand Serenade.

And the reason is you

Next month would be a new chapter in my life.I'm gonna be working.I'm gonna be part of the working class now and it's pretty exciting.I can't wait for it.

It's funny.A month ago,I was thinking about finding a job here in Penang and leave myself to rot here by myself.I thought I'd just work myself to death and maybe if I get lonely,I'll put my picture up in those Malay magazines where people can hookup.However,something unexpected happened.I fell in love with this pretty amazing girl who I've never had the testicular fortitude to go talk to her during my time at MMU.She has really changed me which I thought was for the better.Who the in blue hell am I talking about?I'm talking about one the Olsen twins.Mary-Kate Olsen!Ok OK .I'm just joking.I'm talking about Amy.I'm in love with a really smart lady who really knows her stuff,except for mebbe playing video games which I think I can totally beat her with my hand tied behind my back.

It's because of her that I thought about trying to find a job which is near her.The thought of me being away from her is just....unthinkable.Besides,long distance relationship never works.That's what she said.So,I made an effort to find a job which is near her and thank God,I got one.Being away from her is just hell for me.I miss her very much.Like right now,I can't help but think about her.I think about the guys that are hitting on her.And it just pisses me off and disappointed that I can't be there to smash those puny guys who are hitting on her.

Then again,when I think about it.Who am I compared to those guys?They're good looking,smart and already working.Me?I'm lacking in the looks department plus I'm just starting to work.It kinda makes me feel inferior.It made me think,why'd she pick me instead of them who are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better than them.I'm thankful and consider myself lucky for her to pick me instead of those losers.She really does know how to make a guy feel loved.I know I'm not the most sensitive guy and I can be darn slow in picking up signals,but I keep on telling myself that I'm gonna try my best to make her happy.

If anybody asks me why I'm madly in love with her,I can't provide an answer to that question because I can't describe this feeling that I feel for her.All I know is that I'm crazy in love with a smart and pretty girl which is for me,impossible to find.Somehow that song "I Miss You" by Blink 182 is playing around in my head.It's just that when I'm just hanging out by myself I think of her and just wish that I can be right there with her right now.I love you,B.(When I say B,I'm not referring to Blaire Waldorff.For Gossip Girl fans,you know what I mean.)

Anyways,I think I'd better stop writing all these mushy stuff.It's just not like me to write mushy stuff.I have a reputation to keep.hahaha.

Currently listening to "Mr Brightside" by The Killers.

Goosebumps

Geez.I'm getting goosebumps now.Ever since I got that job offer,I've been having goosebumps.Here I am,safe in my comfort zone and now I'm moving out of my comfort zone.Then again,when did I have a comfort zone?Ah..to hell with this.Being nervous about new change are for people who don't have the testicular fortitude to embrace change.I was reading this "Secret Invasion" comic and there was this thing which kinda hit me:Embrace change!

I guess a good change of scenery would be good.There's a chance for me to be a bigger boy and see how ugly the world really is.There's also a chance for me to be closer to my girl.I'd hate to imagine what it'd be like if I was working in Penang.We'd be far apart from each other.I can't be there for her during her darkest hour.I can't be there to comfort her if she needs a shoulder to cry on.I'm not going to let some other guy lend a shoulder for her to cry on.Nope.No Sireeee.No chance in hell.The same thing goes for her.Who's shoulder would I cry on?Definitely not on some guy's shoulder.That's for sure.How gay is that?Ok so maybe I'm thinking negatively.Maybe that guy's just thinking there's no harm in some male platonic relationship.The point is,you can't whine and bitch about how unfair life at the office is to some guy.It sounds so.....gay.

Luckily for me,I scored on the first interview.Impressive eh?First interview,first job.I didn't expect it myself.I thought I crapped a lot during the interview.Here was one of those questions which they asked me:

Dude interviewing:This would be a stressful job.We want to know how would you deal with the stress?
Me:That's an interesting question.Well,most people would resort to smoking or screaming their hearts out.For me,I tend to make a joke out of it.You know,laugh it off.Every morning,I'd wake up and look myself in the mirror and tell myself,"Why so serious?Let's put a smile on that face".Sorry if I'm quoting The Joker here.The point is:I'd try to make jokes out of it to let out all that stress.Then again,listening to good music would be good.
Dude interviewing:There won't be any music here.There's going to be people screaming at you.
Me:Really?Wow.Then I guess I'll just have to assume that as music to my ears.
Dude interviewing:Hahaha

Another question:
Dude interviewing:This is a contract based job.What would you do to earn yourself a spot as a permanent staff here?
Me:I'd try to work hard to earn it then.If let's say I don't get an extension or anything,then so be it.I'll move on and look for another job.You guys watch football?
Dude interviewing:Ah..you're talking about Ronaldo?
Me:Yeah.Something like that but I'm only interested in Arsenal.
Dude interviewing:Oh,you're an Arsenal fan?Bad choice.We're both MU fans (There were 2 guys interviewing me)
Me:Erk.Ohkaaay.What I'm trying to say is that when a footballer reaches the end of his contract and the club does not want to renew his contract then it's best for him to move on and ply his trade at another club.I picture myself as being in that situation.I don't get an extension,then I move on.Just move on and play for another club.
Dude interviewing:Good point.I like that.

For your information:I did not make this shit up.I swear to God that you cannot make this shit up.I thank my Big Brother and my loving girlfriend,Amy for giving me ideas for this interview.I wouldn't have come up with some good answers if it weren't for them.However,that thing about football players,that was all me.My own ideas.hehehe.Thank you.I appreciate your help.

Anyways,here's to a new chapter in life.Cheers.

Currently listening to "The Scientist" by Coldplay.

Wrestlemania moment

First and foremost,I would like to congratulate myself for getting through MMU and getting up onto the stage for my Wrestlemania moment.Then,I'd like to congratulate my girl for getting up there too.And then congratulations to all of my friends for your success.

It's been over a week already that I've had my convocation.I'm supposed to have written about it but I guess writing something about my love life seemed more important to me.So,for this entry,I'm gonna write about my Wrestlemania/Graduation moment.Don't ask me why I call it my Wrestlemania moment.It goes to show that I'm a wrestling freak and I love to watch men in tights with well toned bodies fight among themselves.Yum Yum.(ignore the yum yum part)

Everybody dreams of having a special day in their life.I had my special day.Coincidentally,that day fell on my birthday.It kinda made my day special.Plus I got to spend some time with my girl who has been tremendous to me.I've never felt so happy since.....they made a movie out of my favorite comic book.

I've never sweated as much as I did that day.Shit.It was hot.Luckily I wasn't as hairy as a gorilla but hell,it was definitely hot out there.(I'd like to make a point here.I did not wet my pants because of some....u know what I'm talking about.)It took quite some time just to get up on that stage and get my scroll.It was boring and I was already getting sleepy.I didn't get to say thank you to those people who wished me happy birthday because I was kinda busy with stuff which needed my immediate attention.So,to those people who I kinda ignored during the convocation day,I'd like to apologize.I didn't mean to be a dick by ignoring you guys but there was just something else that was more important.

The saddest part about the whole thing was my phone ran out of battery.Damn!And I didn't take the frigging camera along with me too.So,now I have to go around and beg to people who have pictures.Here's a message to people have pictures with me in it,please tell me.I beg of you.Don't sell it off to Mangga.I don't want to put my face in those cheap tabloid magazines.I'd rather put it on the cover of Playboy.haha.

Anyways,a grand day ended with a not so grand party.The food was not good.AT ALL.Where in the blue did they come up with that shit?God,MMU sure knows how to spoil a good day.At least all's well that ends well.My only regret was not being able to take more pictures with my friends that day.I had to go home early.My underwear was getting wet and i was not feeling comfortable with it.Ok.That part about my underwear was a joke ok?Don't take it too seriously,people.

Cheers,everybody.If I could turn back time to that day,I would.

Currently listening to "Everything Burns" by Ben Moody featuring Anastacia.

Twist of fate

Remember my last post where I would tell people what the significance of 1st August 2008?Well,the significance is that I finally found the girl that would really make feel happy,loved and appreciated.
I know it sounds corny but the way it happened was really strange.Even for you readers out there would be asking:How in the blue hell did they end up with each other?Or people would be saying "What the fuck?".I ask the same thing too.How it came to be like this was really strange.It's as if it was a scene from the movie The Lake House.Check out IMDB.com if you wanna know more about the movie.The movie is available at video stores near you.
Here's the thing about this.Me and Amy.We've been in the same class for like four years.We see each other almost everyday BUT we've never said hi or say howdy or say wassup,nigga?Never.We started talking when she added me through YM to discuss about accounting theory.That was it.I only talked to her online but never offline.I dunno.Maybe I was shy or maybe I was just not confident enough to go up to a girl like her and say "hey,how are ya?Feeling good today?" or "hey,would you like to hang out with an average Joe like me?"I never had the testicular fortitude to go up to her.
However,things changed.We started chatting almost everyday.Well,she would initiate the conversation first and I'd be the one coming up with the interesting but lame topics.My view of her totally changed.I thought she was like of those untouchable girls where you just can't approach to say "hi" or "howdy?".She's actually rather friendly once you get to know her.So,one day,I asked for her number.The reason for that was it would be easier for me to contact her if I were gonna get married or something.I wasn't into her at all.AT ALL!I was chasing another girl which turned out to be a disaster for me.
After that failed mission,my heart was broken into bits and pieces.I was devastated knowing that I could never get a chance to tell that girl how I felt about her.Somehow,I just text Amy on the phone to tell her how it went.Prior to that incident,I had told Amy about what I'm gonna do that day and she was very supportive.However,I didn't realize that from that moment,I'd be hooked onto her.Never at all.It just kinda hit me.I thought:"Maybe I should tell her what happened.Maybe she can make me feel better."To Wanie:I messaged you too.
From that day,we kinda started to text message each other alot.Then,I remembered there was this one time when Amy told me that she was kinda tired and really wanted somebody to talk to.So,I just gave her a call and we kinda talked on a lotta things that night.However,things ended abruptly because my credit ran out.Just when the conversation was getting interesting,my credit ran out.How embarrassing was that?I was cussing my luck when that happened.
She responded in kind to the situation.She'd call me and I'd call her back.We kinda had a lot in common.Soon,I found myself slowly falling for her.Slowly,my pain was subsiding.I just didn't realize that this one night would be a memorable one. I can't remember much about the details but I still remember these words which started everything:

Amy:You know,if I was interested in a guy,I'd be texting and calling him all the time.I'd still find some time to talk to him no matter how busy I am. (I think that last sentence was made up.)
Azrai:Wait a second!Did you say if you're interested in a guy,you'd do all that?Does that mean you're interested in me?
Amy:No shit,Sherlock?Isn't it obvious that I've been doing all that to show you that I'm interested in you?
Azrai:Well,I didn't notice.I am kinda slow in trying to pickup things.
Amy:Now you know.
Azrai:Even if you didn't tell me that,I would have told you I felt the same way too.
Amy:You're shitting me!(Again,a made up statement just to make this look interesting)
Azrai:Really.To tell you the truth,since these last few days,I kinda felt like that I'm slowly falling for you.I just couldn't help it.I was just not confident that a girl like you would be interested in a guy like me.Just look at you.You're like from Earth and me?A martian.
Amy:Hahahaha

And the rest is history.We didn't meet up to tell each other that we're a couple.C'est bizzare,neh?I dunno.She's just so nice to me on the phone and her voice was just........breathtaking.Seriously,if I continue talking like a mad lovestruck hippie,I'm gonna kick myself in the head.I don't do romantic crap but somehow,she managed to bring it out of me.Slowly.Bit by bit.
Some people might be wondering "Why her?" and why not someone else?She is a much more socialable person than I am.She deserves somebody who's good looking as well as from her world and not me,who by the way does NOT look like Shia Lebeaf and living in another kinda dimension.We lead different lives.Her world looks more interesting than mines.So,why'd I pick her?Simple.She's been so caring,loving and good to me.She knows how to make a guy feel appreciated and that made me slowly fall for her.I just thought "fuck what people are gonna say.I'm gonna do the unthinkable."Fall in love with her and look where it's got me.I feel more confident and happier.
How long would this relationship last?I dunno.What I know is that I am gonna maintain it as best as I can.I won't say that I'll try because trying is just gonna cover up the fact that you're not confident enough.There are sometimes doubts about whether am I able to make her happy or whether I can make things work out.The only way to clear those doubts is by taking things slowly.One step at a time.One small step for Azrai.One big leap to a better future.Maybe one day when I'm 80 years old and looking like Jack Nicholson,I'll be able to tell myself proudly that I dated a very special person.
Ok.I guess that's enough crapping about my love life.I'm gonna stop while I'm ahead or else I'm gonna start writing mushy mushy stuff that would just melt my own heart like chocolate on a hot day.

Currently listening "Hearts Burst Into Fire" by Bullet for My Valentine.

Life is strange,c'est ne pas?

Have you guys ever wanted something but in the end got something which is better?Have you ever thought that sometimes the person that you might end up with would be the last person you would expect to end up with?(Am I making any sense there?)Have you ever thought Arsenal would go a whole season unbeaten and win the Premier League title?

Well,what I wanna ramble about is that all those things have happened to me.It's been kinda like a rush of cold blood to the head.(Now I'm quoting Coldplay's album title).What in the blue hell am I talking about?I'm not gonna tell but 1st August will forever go down in history as the day that I become the happiest comic book fanboy ever.OK.That seems too exaggerated.Lemme rephrase.The first of August would forever go down in history as the day I became the happiest guy on earth.That's another story which shall be told in due time.

Currently listening to "The Anthem" by Good Charlotte.

End of the road

Just as in the title,I would like to publicly say that this is the end of road for my faithful pair of basketball shoes.They have served their purpose well and now,after three long years,I have to let them go.

This is the hardest thing for me to do.Throwing away shoes that have served me so faithfully all these years.It is such a tragedy.Below are pictures of the condition of the shoes.Readers,please be warned,these pictures may be too graphic for you.

This is the condition of my shoes.If you notice in the picture there's tape on the heel of the right shoe.No,that's not tape which I had stepped on.That tape is what's holding the sole of the shoe from not tearing off.I know,it looks so sad.

Here's another shot of those shoes again.(Viewer discretion is required!)

As you can see,there is a moral to this story.Nothing lasts forever and the only force that will forever exist is Allah.I sound like a preacher now,do I?

Well,as sad as this may seem,life must go on.With one pair of shoes gone,in comes a new pair.Let me present to you readers to my new Nike shoes.

My new Nike shoes!White power rules!

Here's a close up look of those shoes.Ain't she a beauty?

Before anybody starts to saying those shoes are not original,lemme tell you bastards,that it cost me RM180.00 for those shoes and there was no discount for it.Sure,some people would say "RM180 is cheap" but for people like me who are just not as rich as Paris Hilton or jack ass from Bukit Beruntong (Why Bukit Beruntong?),it's the most that I can spend.

Anyways,it's going to be tough taking care of white shoes.It kinda reminds me of school.haha.

Currently listening to "That Green Gentleman (Things have changed)" by Panic at the Disco.

Hate it

Entry #20:I had earlier made a post here but I have since deleted it.It kinda looked like I was whining and bitching about my future.Well,it was but I told myself,I'm not going to write my whining and bitching here just to get sympathy.So,I took the liberty of deleting that earlier post.Life is still a war zone out there but hey,you have to look on the bright side of things right?

Ok.What I want to talk about is the new Batman movie,The Dark Knight.I hate to admit it as a Marvel Comics fan,I thought the Batman movie was cooler than Iron Man and The Hulk combined in terms of action,suspense and acting.I mean,just look at The Joker.He definitely kicks all the supervillains that have graced the silver screens.He looks way meaner than The Abomination.He's waaay smarter than Magneto plus he's no pussy when it comes to kicking Batman's ass with a crowbar and a couple of mad dogs at his heels (Spoiler alert!).I salute the late Heath Ledger for being a better Joker than Jack Nicholson.I wonder how he does it.That hospital scene was funny.I liked that.

Then,there's Christian Bale as Bruce Wayne aka Batman.He was soooooo effective as the Batman that I thought he was better than Robert Downey Jr. as Iron Man.He has that aura that every Batman should have.Dark.Brooding and the what not.Damn!Why can't Marvel Comics make a movie just like this?

All in all,I thought it was kinda cool.The action scenes were marvelous.Even the supporting casts were effective in their roles.Too bad Two Face died in the same movie (Spoiler alert!).I was already thinking about a third movie.Hmm..I wonder who his next adversary would be.Maybe Bane or The Penguin?Who knows right?We shall have to wait and see.

Currently listening to "Iron Man" by Black Sabbath.

Change of title

Well,here's some changes that I have made for my blog.I've decided to change my title from "two cents worth of drain bamage" to "News from the warzone".Why?Simple.I thought that whole drain bamage thingy was just getting lame and it doesn't sound funny anymore whilst when you see or hear war,it's like "yeah,blood bullets and body parts everywhere."Ok.It sounds brutal but this ain't no Saving Private Ryan or Rambo stuff.

The significance is that life is like a warzone.You have to fight to survive and when I say fight,I'm not talking about punching the lights out of the person sitting next to you.You see,it ain't easy to live and you meet challenges which may frustrate you as I have found the hard way.So,here's to the new title change.

Currently listening to "No Easy Way Out" by Bullet for My Valentine.

What drama!

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.Today,we're gonna talk about things that have happened on TV for this week.

I was watching WWE Raw on Tuesday and I anticipated that it was going to be boring episode since my favorite wrestling character (Yes,I have a favorite wrestler) has switched shows and gone to Smackdown!(for readers who don't understand what in the blue hell I'm talking about,you could check out www.wwe.com for more info on this whole Raw and Smackdown thing).Ok.Back to our main topic.

This week was a very entertaining episode with the crowning of a new World Heavyweight Champion:CM Punk!I admit,I didn't expect that to happen.I usually get to see John Cena being the champion all the time and I was getting bored with him as champion.So,it was nice to and refreshing to see someone else being in the title frame.Congratulations to CM Punk.There wasn't much wrestling this week because there was a lotta talking on the show but it was an entertaining kinda talk.You have to be a wrestling fan if you wanna get what I mean.

Malaysian politics is just like wrestling too.I'm not interested in this whole politics shit but c'mon,this is just like wrestling.The only difference is that the storylines in the political scene is a bit complicated.And I thought wrestling was fake.They should say that all politicians are fakes.Who gives a rat's ass about who sodomised who and who shoved his you-know-what up where the sun doesn't shine?Shouldn't they be focused on doing something that will benefit the people?What is going on with the world?The more this thing goes on,the more it looks like an episode of "The West Wing"."The West Wing."Shit.I've never watched that stupid ass show and I'm mentioning it here.Jeez.

I'm not in a position to say what they should and should not do but please,for the love of God,stop all this nonsense and get on with your job.It's boring.If you still wanna continue this whole "He shoved his dick up my ass" crap,just make it more spicier.Add another female character into it.When I say female character,I don't wanna see some old ass bitch in the picture.Nope.Something like a Maggie Q kinda person.

I think I'll stop rambling about this shit.The more I write,the more I want to criticize Malaysian politics.Fuck all of 'em.

Currently listening to "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenhold.

Welcome to my world

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.Today I ain't talking about how things didn't go to plan or bitch about how life sucks.I'm going to talk about my part time workplace.I don't earn much in terms of money but hell,it's a nice place to work at.

This is what my workplace looks like:

This is the look of the book store.You see those stacks of books?Well,those are the text books for the students to use.They are heavy I tell you.And when I say heavy,it is heavy.

The books are not in an orderly manner is because those are old books and are going to be returned to their publishers.I know,it's a sight for sore eyes.

Ok.So now you've seen the front part of the bookstore.Wait till you see the back of the store where all the books are kept.

Yes.Those boxes contain the text books that all students are gonna use.I know.Us bookstore people are the unsung heroes of the university because we are the ones who have to suffer by carrying all those heavy boxes.

This is a view from my workplace.It's a mess,huh?

You have to be thankful for those hardworking people who work so hard at your university bookstores.Without them,the students wouldn't be able to study.Without text books,how are they gonna study?So,the moral of the story is to appreciate the work of the people at your university bookstore.They deserve credit for all the hard work that they put in.Maybe you should go to that nice young man (or woman) and say "thank you" for all the hard work that they had put in.They'll definitely feel touched.I know I would.haha.Girls,don't feel shy about approaching that handsome young bookstore keeper.If you feel like asking him,go for it.And I'm not talking about me ok?It could be somebody else.Guys,the same thing goes for you.

Deadpool's analysis of this job:this job can really help buff myself up.I bet another two months here I'll buff as Shia Lebeouf.lol.

Currently listening to "Guilty" by The Rasmus.

Ouch!

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of drain bamage.I got a question.Have you ever made plans about doing something and that plan does not go as you have planned it?Have you ever thought about all the possibilities that could happen and prepare a plan to respond to that certain possibility?I thought I had everything covered.However I didn't expect this to happen.What a disappointment.

What happened was that I had my game plan all planned out.I had prepared a plan in response to all the possible things that might have happened.I was gonna tell her how I felt about her and had arranged to meet at a certain time.I had myself prepared in case something like this happened "I have to hurry.I have class" or "Sorry,but my friend is waiting for me" but I definitely didn't prepare myself for a no-show.I had waited for my chance and she was a no-show.At least I delivered those things at her doorstep.It was a tiring walk just to get there.Sigh.The things I do to impress a girl.Pretty idiotic,huh?I guess it was just not meant to be.In the end,my return to MMU was a disappointment.I ended up with just sweaty armpits and a whole load of disappointment shoved down my throat.

The day was not a total disappointment,though.I got to meet up with all my housemates sans Alip.He had some interview that he had to go but he did make a cameo appearance.It's too bad that he's gone of to Australia or else what a reunion that would have been.I was even more surprised that Mamu would join up to watch a movie!In all the years that I've lived with him,I've only watched a movie with him only once.And that was in 2005 when we watched War of the Worlds(which i thought was a crappy movie).Still,it was nice to see everybody again.

Campus sure has changed.The new FOM building pretty much reminds me of CLC.How lucky are these students to get a feel of the new building?I wish I had a chance to use that new building.It looked kinda cool to me.The downside of it was that fucking far.What do you smell when a guy who's sweating like a stuck pig comes into class and he sits next to you?Use your imagination.

I guess that's all that I have to bitch about for this week.I guess things are pretty much over for me.Might as well as focus on making money and leave anything to do with feelings aside.But what the hell,who knows what will happen,right?We'll just have to wait and see how things go from here.Shit happens.

Currently listening to "Bad Day" by Fuel.

2nd chance!

Welcome,dear readers,to another rambling from myself.I haven't been blogging much nowadays because I've been busy working.Yes!I said I've been busy working.But it's a part time job for me and I think it's better than not doing anything at all at home.I just can't sit idle at home and wait for my parents to give me money.At least I can earn some money and do some good for myself.

Anyways,this time I want to ramble about my 2nd chance of that game plan which failed about a month ago.This time I'm hoping for it to happen.Luckily I'm going back to MMU to settle some crap which I haven't quite dusted under the rug so this is my lucky break.When that time comes,I'm gonna go to her and tell her how I feel.Just thinking about this gives me a shiver down my spine.I am kinda nervous about this and I definitely know what's going to happen.Whatever happens,I just need to put on a brave face and just swallow it like a bitter pill.Hey,rejection's not that bad,ok?You just have to live with the embarrassment for at least 2 or 4 seconds and then it's gone.See?2 or 4 seconds.You won't even feel it.

But if something else happened,then I'm gonna be the happiest merc-with-a-mouth.But let's keep my chances of that happening to 90-10.90 for things to not go my way and 10 for things to go my way.Mebbe we should increase that that 90 to 98.So,my chances are 98-2.I don't quite sound optimistic.

Currently listening to "Dear God" by Avenged Sevenhold.

Lucky Number 7

7 random facts about me:
1.I wear glasses
2.I don't want to work in Penang
3.I hate auditing but maybe I'll have to reconsider that statement.
4.I love eating at McD
5.I used to watch porn
6.I've recently finished my studies.
7I'm looking for a job

7 things that scare me:
1.God
2.Failure-failure in exams,failure in getting the girl of my dreams etc....
3.Chaos in Malaysia.
4.Cats!
5.Big bugs.
6.Gory movies with a lotta blood-Final Destination movies.
7.Teletubbies

7 random music at the moment:
1.Beat It - Fall Out Boy
2.Low - Flo Rida
3.Astronomy - Metallica
4.I Disappear - Metallica
5.From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to Mars
6.Forever - The Veronicas
7.Power Rangers theme song

7 things I say the most:
1.Fuck!
2.Oh shieeet..
3.What the fuck..
4.What the fruit...
5.Damn!
6.Crap!
7.Argh!God damn it.

(all the swear words.I know)

7 things I treasure the most:
1.My family
2.My friends
3.My handphone
4.My laptop
5.My Arsenal jersey
6.My WWE Smackdown t-shirt
7.My car

7 "first time" things I ever did:
1.Kiss a girl.Waaaaay back in....damn,I can't remember.
2.Smoke.I don't do that anymore.
3.Watch porn in Form 3 when my family members were asleep.
4.watch Jurassic Park at the movies in Aberdeen,Scotland
5.Get into a bloody fight back in Aberdeen,Scotland.I got the scars to prove it.
6.Hit a car and then ran away.I think my car got the worse out of it.
7.peed my trousers when I just can't hold it back anymore waaaay back in primary 3 when I was in Aberdeen,Scotland.


7 people to do this:
I dunno.Anybody,I guess.

The end of the MMU adventure...for real.

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.This is is gonna be a long one.An emotional one,I guess.I'm gonna look back at my adventure at MMU and say:Hell,what a ride!

First of all,I'd like to hail my housemates who have been really great to me.Heck,they're the best people around that a guy could ask for.They may look like a rag-tag bunch of pirates but deep down,they're cuddly like those Care Bears.I'd like to hail these guys:Alip,Fareez,Saz,Ameen,Mamu,Fezal,Butt,Syahrir and Buster.Those guys are the best.I especially liked the time when we all would hang around and waste our time playing games and playing cards.Those were the good old times.I'm gonna miss them.In a male platonic kinda way,ok!

Then,there's my classmates.Azzeri,Lionel,Wanie,Nicol,Alia,Ena...and a whole lotta bunch of people who I dunno who to mention.They're also the best people a guy could ever ask for as friends.

It's just funny about the way I met these people.I didn't really know them but in the end,we all became kinda close and it's a shame that I didn't get the chance to hang out with them on the last day of the exams.Someday,I'm gonna look back at those times when I met them all and laugh out loud how things became this way.Seriously,for instance,if you knew how I met Wanie,you'd laugh.And if you knew how I became tight with Azzeri,you'd laugh also.

What else have I discovered?Well,I did find love here but it didn't quite work out for me.Maybe I'll get lucky next time when I'm working.I have to credit those girls for giving me hell and also giving me happiness.I hope you guys are happy.I'm not dissing anybody here ok.It's just a statement to say that I want them to be happy.

Then,there's also a couple of people who I don't quite like.Take for instance,this creepy lil' bastard who I thought was a good buddy of mine but it turned out,he's been backstabbing me all along.He's always wanting to know about everybody's business and shit.But when it comes to people wanting to know about his shit,he gets all defensive and starts going "Mind your own business."Well,I'm glad that he finished earlier than me because I'd hate to see his fucking face again around campus.Who am I talking about?I'm not telling but some people might know him.Let's hope I don't have to see his face again.

All in all,I'd say I had fun.Let's see what the next adventure holds for me.Who knows,I might get to save the world.

Currently listening to "Four Minutes" by Madonna featuring Justin Timberlake.

Langkawi...the land of legends and fantasy....whatever!

Events at Langkawi

This is me and my mom waiting to board the plane to Langkawi

Breakfast in Langkawi

Somewhere in Langkawi.Can't remember where but there was a lotta cruise ships there.

Dunno where this is but it sure looked nice.

On a floating restaurant.

On a boat ride to somewhere.
Oh yeah,right.Forgot.I went on a boat ride round Kilim Geoforest Park
What in the blue hell am I pointing at?
This.Some cliff which the boatman said looked like a red Indian chief.Hell, I don't even see the resemblance.
Waiting for lunch to come.
Holding a clam or something.
By the power of the clam,I now claim you as my prize!

Eating an oyster.That hurt my teeth!

Just outside the batcave.

Out looking at some monkeys in the bushes.

See those lil' crabs there?

Leaving Langkawi

Before boarding the plane to Penang.

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.This time,I'm not going write about how screwed things are or how the world is plunging into damnation.I'm gonna talk about my holiday vacation in Langkawi.People usually go out of Malaysia for vacations and stuff.Me?I'm sticking with good ol' Malaysia for some R&R.Cuti-cuti Malaysia.

What's that saying about a picture tells a thousand words?Or issit a picture tells a story?Yeah,I'm kinda tired about writing the whole trip so I'll just let those pictures above tell what I did there in Langkawi.

What pissed me off during the whole trip was the attitude of people there.They come to the island for shopping for what?Plates,bowls and all those crappy stuff.Those stuff are expensive!Even I wouldn't buy those things.Sheesh.I heard this old lady talking to her friends about how she can't eat because she bought sooo many shit and didn't know how to carry those things back to Penang.The best thing was she was going back by boat!I was laughing like a jackass when she was relating that story to her friend.

I haven't been to Langkawi in 10 years and a lotta things have changed there.There's even a cinema there.What's strange is that of all the things that I wanted to find there,I couldn't find a McDonald's restaurant.I saw some signboards but they just didn't point me to the right direction.Some help those things were.

Anyways,It was a fun vacation there and there were some embarrassing moments too.For instance,I was holding this oyster and the damn thing squirted water on me.And I nearly fell into the damn pool!Luckily for me,I was agile as a cat.Ironic isn't it that I used the word cat to describe how agile I was.I hate cats!

So,let's plan for the next vacation now shall we?Next stop,Australia.

Currently listening to "Thnks fr th mmrs" by Fall Out Boy.

Nicol tagged me!

Another tagging thingy which I don't really understand but since I'm bored,so here goes:

Name:
Mohd Kamarul Azrai Bin Ainuddin

Occupation:
Full-time couch potato (everybody's got jobs and I'm still stuck at home)

Age:
23 (still 23 ok!)

Zodiac:
Leo

Fave Hangout:
Any place that I can call home

Talent:
Hmm..I think it's my ability to make lame jokes and talk nonsense.

Three things I can't live without:
Money (hey,ya can't blame a guy for not loving money)
Internet connection (Geez,I can't sit still at home without downloading something)
Handphone(yeah,yeah,I'm not a girl but I really need to be connected)

What a sweetest thing a girl/boy has done for you?
I dunno.Buy me dinner,I think.I can't name all the girls and boys who've done sweet things for me cos there's just too many.

What's one thing you're glad you've outgrown?
What kinda question is this?Oh,yeah.I'm glad I outgrown myself watching Sesame Street.I cannot believe I watched that show when I was small.Dang!

Biggest mistake is...
not being an accounting student.If I didn't take accounting,I wouldn't have met all these brilliant people that I know now.Ok minus certain people ok.
Not going out too much during my early accounting years.I was a nerd and I still am,I think.

Which actor would play you in a movie about your life?
Tobey McGuire (He's just like me with those geeky face or issit just the makeup?)

Why do women/men....
listen to New Boyz?They are the bomb!You drop their album on Israel and you can kill 'em all.One minute of their song can kill you.

If you were a product,how would you advertising campaign read?
I'm not full of energy but rich in vitamin C

The End of the Road and Disappointment.

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.Here's to the end of the road for me.This is my last post as a student.D-Day is finally over or should I say,exams are finally over.And when I say it's over,it's definitely over.Ok,so maybe it's not over yet.There's still the supplementary papers to take IF i flunk one or two papers (which i hope not).

Here are my thoughts on the last two papers
D-Day:Day 4:Forensic Accounting.
I think this is the first paper where I had to really,really write a lot and also the first paper here in MMU where I didn't study shit for it.I mean,there was nothing to read about.The lecture notes were crap and all I to do was use my common sense in answering those questions.You can say that this paper was a bit tough considering I had to write so damn much just for the 1st question.Geez.

D-Day:Day 5:Management Decision Science
Finally!The last paper where almost all the students have been waiting for.I've waited for this last paper for a long time now.After this,I'm adding myself to the statistics for unemployed people.God,I'm gonna be jobless after this three hour paper.I studied really hard for this paper considering I took this paper last year and failed spectacularly.Hopefully,history doesn't repeat itself.

Yeah,the last day was also my last day to enjoy my days in MMU and also to student life.It was also my last chance to tell that one particular girl about how I felt towards her.How did it go?Let's just say,I'm leaving MMU a disappointed man.I was planning to tell her later in the night after her exams.I've even practiced my lines really well and rehearsed it.To my disappointment,I didn't even get to see a shadow nor hear anything from her.All I got was the "duu..duu..duu..duu" on the dial tone.I tried to call her but there was just no answer from her.I tell myself,"maybe she's asleep because she's tired from the exams." Or maybe it's just her trying to avoid me.Whatever it is,I'm leaving with having things left unsaid.Somehow,the song "Bye Bye Baby" by OK Go is playing in my head over and over again.

Yeah,I wanted to break the news to my friends about what happened but what can I say?Nothing happened....I'm left disappointed.Where's Oprah when you need her?I do so want to end up on Oprah.Just so you know,I am not making this shit up.You cannot make this shit up.I didn't chicken out from my plan.Well,I was planning to but I didn't.It just didn't go as I hoped or planned it would.Ah,to hell with it.

Anyways,I don't want to say goodbye to everybody I know because I might get emotional.I hate it when it comes to goodbyes.I'm an emotional guy,so sue me!

Well,here's to the good and bad memories of being in MMU.Life goes on,bub!Cheers!

Currently listening to "Bye Bye Baby" by OK Go.

D-Day

Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.It's been a really,really,really draining week for me.It's the final exams and I feel really pooped from all that studying.Hell,I've been studying for the past two weeks.I hate studying.I'd rather sit through three re-runs of Titanic rather than read Securities Investment and Portfolio Management.I'd rather watch some bad acting by those "Akademi Fantasia" assholes than do all those Corporate Accounting 2 questions.Sheesh.

Was it all worth it?I don't know.I think I worked hard but I can't help but feel that something bad is gonna happen.So,how did I fare?Let's just say that I feel like something bad is gonna happen.My spider-sense is tingling is off the charts!

D-Day:Day 1:Securities Investment & Portfolio Management.
I think I'm gonna flunk this paper.I was totally caught of guard.It was like I was putting a frontal assault on the damn enemies when they blindsided me from the left flank and devastated my whole assault.Pretty dramatic eh?Ok.What I'm saying is that I expected some thing like the past year papers but in the end,there weren't any theory questions and the whole calculations part was so tough that I totally fucked up!It's like when I opened the paper,all I got is a big "FUCK YOU" note on the paper.Damn the lecturer for misleading me.Not a good first day for me.Sigh.I guess I have to look forward to the next exam:Corporate Accounting 2.

D-Day:Day 2:Corporate Accounting 2
I studied for a week for this paper.I'm pretty sure I can do this shit.But,alas,things are never as we expect it to be.Initially,I thought I did quite well for that paper but as time went on,it got tougher and I definitely couldn't do some of those questions.Sheesh.All that studying for nothing.My confidence has been shot to pieces.Now,if only I can get the Olsen twins to tell me that I did ok after all that.......

D-Day:ERP Systems
I'm not quite worried about this paper because I was quite confident about this shit.Although there were parts where I just didn't know what to right but thanks to my ability to come up with ridiculous ideas,I didn't leave out that question.

D-Day is not yet over.I still have 2 more papers to go.I'm quite confident for these next two papers.Confidence is high.I believe I can do well for this.Or can I?

Currently listening to "What's my age again?" by Blink 182.

The Game Plan

Welcome,dear readers to another edition of Drain Bamage. I know the title sounds corny and cheesy and is a rip-off from a movie but I think that title is exactly the thing I wanna ramble about.

You see,for the past few days,my mind has been disturbed.The reason being is that I may not have the chance to tell how I feel about this certain person.I'm going back to Penang on the 25th and my last paper is on the 23rd.My initial plan was to ask that particular person out maybe a few days after the exams but you know how things usually don't work out as planned.Ok this is nonsense.Let's name this particular person "Megan" as in Megan Fox.How I wish it was actually Megan Fox.

Ok.The plan is simple.Ask Megan out and then at the end of it all tell her how I feel.Here,I got a script ready for it.Let's put some comedy in this shit,shall we?

Deadpool: Well,this is it.It's been fun.This is the last time I'll be seeing you.

Megan:Yeah.It has been fun.Well,then,good bye!See you around.(she walks off to her home)

Deadpool:Megan!Wait.Hold up.I....have something to tell you.I may not have another chance to tell you this and this could be my last chance for me to tell you.

Megan:(Pause) What're you talking about?

Deadpool:You know...we been out for like...one,two or four times like that and I kinda have this strange feeling about you.You know,like butterflies in your stomach.

Megan:(Looking confused)

Deadpool:Ok.I'll get straight to the point.I think I like you.I wouldn't want to use the word "love" because that would be too strong to describe this feelings but..yeah,I like you.I just had to say it because who knows,I might not be alive tomorrow so I just had to let you know about it.It's OK if you can't accept that but I felt like this had to be the right time to tell you.I've waited a long time to tell you this and I thought that this was the right moment to tell you.

Megan:(looking shocked)

Deadpool:I know what you're gonna say.You're going to say "Are you kidding me?" and then I'll say "No,I'm not kidding."Or if you can't say anything at all maybe you can just give me an sms or anything.That'll be just fine.OK.I've said all that I wanted to say.I think I'll excuse myself.Don't be a stranger OK?

Now,there could be two conclusions to this thing.
1.She says that she can't accept it but would like to just remain friends.Nothing else.Or to put it in stronger words:Sorry,you're just not my type.

2.She says the feeling's mutual and that we should take things easy slowly.Or to put in in stronger words:I got feelings for you too,but it's just too early and we need to get to know each other well first.It's just not official.Yet.

I'd prefer for the 2nd conclusion but who knows what will happen if I don't tell her.I may or may not like the answer that's going to come.Now that felt a teensy weensy better now.I've been having this bottled up inside of me for some time and it's really affecting me.I don't know whether it's just too early or the right time.I've asked around and they say I should just go and tell her how I feel.It doesn't matter whether she accepts or not.What matters is you tell her or else you will regret it.

I wonder if those this thing really work out in the real world?Only one way to find out if life is really as dramatic as Britney Spear's life.Sorry,Nicol.I just had to use Britney.I don't like using Jessica Alba 'cos I like her.

Currently listening to "Highway to Hell" by ACDC.

Tag!You're it!

I don't quite understand this whole tagging thing but Nicol asked me to do this lil' thingy here.

Dream job:I dunno.I think I have like 3 dream jobs.
1.Househusband.
2.Lecturer
3.Personal assistant to Britney Spears

Why?
1.Why I wanna be a househusband?Simple.I hate to work.I prefer to stay at home and take care of the kids.I'm gonna marry a gal who's rich and will work for me.Hey,as long as I can provide her with some good sex,then I don't see any problems to that.

2.Why I wanna be an lecturer?Maybe it's because my old man is also a lecturer.Besides,being a lecturer isn't that bad.Just go to class,say "hi" to the kids,and teach them crap.And the pay is good too.

3.Why I wanna be a personal assistant to Britney Spears?Because she's rich and I can get her deepest,darkest secrets and my ugly face will be all over the tabloid newspapers with the headline: "Photogenic Personal Assistant"

There's also the worst job:

Worst job to have:
Auditor

Why?
Simple.The pay is bad.You have to work on weekends and I definitely hate to work on weekends.Plus,it's just too tedious to work as an auditor.

Currently listening to "Fade to Black" by Metallica

Wedding bells a ringing

No,those bells are not ringing for me.And no,I'm not getting married whatsoever.I'm not doing a Mariah Carey OK?So, let's get to my usual opening lines.Welcome,dear readers,to another edition of Drain Bamage.Contrary to that title above,I am going to once again say that I am NOT getting married.I'm referring to my housemate,Ameen,who is gonna get married in August.Congratulations!

As we were talking about our futures,me and my friends discussed who among us were next in line to lose our "man cards".For those who don't get the meaning of "man cards",it means getting married.Here's the surprise.Ameen said that I was the next one to get married in the near future.What the fuck?Cue the "laugh out loud" track now please.hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....

That is the biggest overstatement of all that I've ever heard.It's kinda strange actually.He wasn't the only person to say the same thing.Miss Aliza also said the same thing when she said among me,Fareez and Butt,I was going to be the first one to get married.C'mon.Do I even look like I'm gonna get married in the near future.I don't even have a special someone and yet somebody comes and say "Hey,you jackass,you're gonna get married earlier than all your housemates."That's just funny.Ludicrous.Blasphemy!The reason for all this is because my "love life" is not as complicated as them all.Not complicated,huh?Obviously that is another overstatement.My love life is messed up like Britney Spear's thong.Seriously.It ain't as peachy as it looks like.Not as straight as an ironed shirt.Not as straight as the LDP or even as straight as Jessica Alba's hair.Why do I have to make those ridiculous comparisons I will never know.

Geez.Why the hell am I even talking about marriage anyways?In fact,why am I even talking about love?Oh ship!The final exams are just around the corner and I can't be distracted with these kinda crap.Right now I AM kinda distracted.I just dunno how to put in words just yet.Maybe when I'm free,I'll write on what that distraction is all about.

Currently listening to "I want it that way" by the Backstreet Boys.Oh great.I'm listening to the Backstreet Boys.It just goes to show that I am distracted.Where is Hitch when you need him?I I got girl problems and I need you to be my Jonas Brothers.Show me the light,Dr H.I so do not want to end up on Oprah again.

And what does your name mean?

I was fucking bored and didn't know what to do so I tried this really cool thing.It's actually nothing special and it's a crappy thing but in these times of boredom,this is the kinda thing that helps.I went to this link:http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/ to find out what my name means.And this is what the damn thing has to say about my name:

What Azrai Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I guess it rings true to some of the things about myself.Hahaha..Hmm..I wonder what the Mary Kate and Ashley's name means.Hey,there's no harm in finding out about it eh?Ne c'est pas?

Currently listening to "Angel's Orchestra" by Disagree.

How do they do it?

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Days of future now and a certain somebody turns 24

Welcome,dear readers to another edition of Drain Bamage. I really do not have anything to write on for the past few days.I've been busy with some things that requires my immediate attention,which was assignments.God,I hate assignments.Those things can make your world crazy and give you sleepless nights.That and the fact that I'm facing with some confidence crisis.

With the final exams looming,you ask yourself:Are you ready for it?Are you ready for what's coming to you after you're done with it?Are you ready to work?Are you ready for Megan Fox's wedding?Hell,those questions are really bugging the hell out of me.Plus add the fact that my confidence is kinda shattered bit by bit.Is this a sign of me being a part of the Looney Tunes family?

In order to get my questions answered,I went to see a lecturer who peeled me bit by bit and exposed me to the truth.Kinda dramatic,don't cha think?Seriously,her words were very......interesting.She said I was the type of person who can be dependable and can manage people well.The other thing that she said was that I am a squarehead.In layman terms, it means that I'm too straight,naive and always following the rules.I guess she's right.She also said I wasn't the academician type of person.Shit.There goes my ambitions of trying to be a tutor or if I'm lucky,I could be ....(pause)....a lecturer.I don't look much like a lecturer,right?Geez.Mebbe now I don't look like one but wait three or maybe five years,I'll definitely look like one.Mark my words,Miss Aliza.I will prove you wrong.

Anyways, that little pep talk by Miss Aliza sure has given some inspiration to do good in my finals.Kudos to her for that.Now if only I can something or someone to lift my shattered confidence.A simple "everything's gon to be alright" from the right person would definitely be nice.Sigh.Look up "screwed" in the dictionary,see my face.Hit laugh track.

This is still not finished yet.I still have some other things to ramble about.Oh it's May 1st 2008.Happy Birthday to Alia who has just turned 24.You're not that young anymore,chere.May the force be with you.Oh, in future,or maybe in 2-5 years time,please come to my wedding.I dunno who I'll be married to but I'm definitely getting married.Not with a dude,that is.So,cheers to Alia who just turned 24 and to all those other people who are celebrating their birthday today.Enjoy your day!

Currently listening to "Broken" by Seether featuring Amy Lee.